Despair

 

God so Loves you
that He will ruthlessly garden
in the depths of
of your heart
and it will cause you to despair
it will cause you to doubt
salvation
but it is evidence that He
most definitely Loves you
Though it might be easier for you
if He just pruned away
at the fruit of sin,
to have the fruit removed
but the root remain
is no good to you
and brings no glory to God
in this moment of hardness
the Holy Spirit of God 
with hands around
the base of guilt and shame, fear and anxiety
with all the power that exists,
is uprooting all the things
that derail and 
destroy you

Matt Chandler